Things have rapidly changed over the past few weeks. I feel like I should have been blogging about it the whole time, but now I am forced to play catch up.
Let's summarize:
-Rich and I hit a very rocky patch. He was not present for my life for almost 2 weeks due to commitments with his daughter and going on a vacation with some friends. He came back a very changed man, someone I'm not quite sure I like. Being out in the desert definitely had an impact on him. Suddenly he went from this confident, loving, caring, but very busy man (sometimes irritatingly so) to this need to be with me at all times and know where I am and who I am with and why am I not answering the phone when he calls me twenty times, insanely protective man. It's very odd behaviour and I don't care for it one bit. He is slowly mellowing out, but its not been easy.
-Dave and I are closer than ever. We slept together. And probably will again. I guess I should recount how that happened. In as few words as possible, he came over to hang out while Rich was gone, and I gave him head, then he left. We talked and laughed and had fun, but it was nothing serious. We went out for drinks with some co-workers and had a lot too much to drink, and he kissed me after I complained that the last kiss he gave me sucked. I about fell over the kisses were so amazing.
We have since kissed a lot, and can't seem to keep our hands off each other. I gave him head again and he went down on me, and it felt better than any time Rich has ever done it. It was amazing. And then he pulled me on top of him and it was amazing. I was so nervous, but it was so amazing.
We agreed not to do it again. But we keep kissing. And touching. And he's on his way right now to my place. And we've gotten attached to each other. Seriously attached.
But, we discussed our situation today and decided that we have to remain friends, first and foremost. The sex cannot happen on a regular basis, just a every once in a while kind of thing. We also made it clear that neither of us are going to leave our other relationships anytime soon, so this thing we have is not permanent. But, we also agreed that at any time, when both of us are free from any relationships, we are going to be together. In a relationship.
We've developed this bond that I'm really enjoying. We have so much fun together. I understand that it's the newness of the "relationship" that I'm feeling, but it's also the deepening of our friendship that we have built for the past few years. I'm really looking forward to seeing what happens, although I'm firmly aware that it may all crash and burn on us.
And now I'm writing the rest of this in the after glow. It was amazing. My legs are still shaking, an hour later.
